harder, better, faster, stronger

give_me_cocaine @ 2009-08-03T00:52:00

2009-08-03T04:52:55Z

AUGUST 2009. LAST CHANCE.

give_me_cocaine @ 2008-09-22T01:25:00

2008-09-22T05:28:45Z

i don't know why but i feel like when i turn 21 everything will change. maybe because i will be able to go places and meet people outside of the bubble i'm currently in. CAN'T WAIT.

in other news, majors ups and downs lately. trying to make it so that there are more ups than downs. somehow boys are always the root of these things.

give_me_cocaine @ 2008-08-13T00:37:00

2008-08-13T04:37:45Z

i love feeling new bones start to stick out.

when does it stop being an illness and become a way of life?

give_me_cocaine @ 2008-05-22T23:50:00

2008-05-23T03:52:28Z

I wish I had a body to die for,
skinny is sexy, sweet anorexia!

give_me_cocaine @ 2008-04-20T23:55:00

2008-04-21T03:56:04Z

i don't know why i'm still interested - all logic and reason would tell me not too. i think it's because i've been seeing him around with that really skinny hipster girl. i don't know what his deal is. but i do know that i have to get sooooo skinny

give_me_cocaine @ 2008-03-04T02:40:00

2008-03-04T07:40:18Z

my comfort.

give_me_cocaine @ 2008-03-03T22:00:00

2008-03-04T03:00:24Z

don't you hate it when you look in a mirror and all you can see is fat

give_me_cocaine @ 2008-01-28T23:12:00

2008-01-29T04:13:59Z

this is hilarious. my new roommates are eating-disorder (prevention)/body image obsessed. they bought a mannequin to smash for eating disorder awareness week.

and this has made my willpower stronger than ever before. i haven't eaten for 2 days (except for a couple of peanuts.) sweet.

give_me_cocaine @ 2008-01-08T21:10:00

2008-01-09T02:11:52Z

WEEK 1
9/1/08- 50 cals- liquids only
10/1/08- 200 cals- fruits and vegetables only
11/1/08- 300 cals
12/1/08- 400 cals
13/1/08- 50 cals- liquids only
14/1/08- 200 cals- fruits and vegetables only
15/1/08- 300 cals

WEEK 2
16/1/08- 200 cals
17/1/08- 400 cals
18/1/08- 600 cals
19/1/08- 800 cals
20/1/08- 200 cals- fruits and vegetables only
21/1/08- 50 cals- liquids only
22/1/08- 50 cals- liquids only

WEEK 3
23/1/08-300 cals
24/1/08- 400 cals
25/1/08- 500 cals
26/1/08- 200 cals- fruits and vegetables only
27/01/08- 300 cals- fruits and vegetables only
28/01/08- 50 cals liquids only
29/ 01/08- 200 cals

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-12-11T20:45:00

2007-12-11T19:46:09Z

i have gained so much weight since being here, i don't even know how to get back on track.

yikes.

end of summer

2007-08-03T12:57:04Z

this summer was a total flop. i don't know how i managed to forget why i was working so hard to get skinny.
it's time to start restricting again because quite frankly, i'm disgusting.

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-06-26T02:20:00

2007-06-26T06:21:08Z

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-06-25T21:40:00

2007-06-26T01:40:53Z

i want him. the next time i see him, i'm going to walk right up to him and show him what he should have done months ago.

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-05-28T03:31:00

2007-05-28T07:32:05Z

my thighs are the size of a small house.
ugh.

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-05-16T12:37:00

2007-05-16T16:39:23Z

stress make controlling your diet so hard.
i can't exercise until tomorrow and i haven't been to the gym since THURSDAY!!!!! (i went to the gym for a good 15 minutes yesterday before i started coughing up a lung and had to leave)
i feel myself getting fatter...ugh.
but i can't do anything about it until i finish finals.

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-05-05T01:25:00

2007-05-05T05:25:50Z

i got too conceited.

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-04-06T13:29:00

2007-04-06T17:32:45Z

back on track back on track back on track track track

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-04-02T14:31:00

2007-04-02T18:33:33Z

and all of a sudden, spurred by something i am not aware of, i realized that it would be strange and wrong for such a relationship to occur
and after this realization, came a release of weight, an understanding that i was no longer held down by unattainable fantasies and desires

suck it [in], bitch.

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-03-30T22:11:00

2007-03-31T02:12:21Z

i took two laxatives the other day and now i'm bloated and feel so gross

96 is the perfect number

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-03-17T00:02:00

2007-03-17T04:02:27Z

i will achieve perfection.

seven day juice fast starts now.

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-03-16T03:13:00

2007-03-16T07:13:54Z

i want to carve out every inch of excess, melt every pound of failure

is perfect possible?

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-03-09T13:49:00

2007-03-09T18:49:25Z

ON A DIET!

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-03-04T13:09:00

2007-03-04T18:10:56Z

i wanted to be a perfect, beautiful ballerina
not an eating disordered, insane, drug addicted, obsessive compulsive headcase

what happened between a and b?

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-03-02T02:04:00

2007-03-02T07:04:38Z

it's just you and me, ana, just you and me

give_me_cocaine @ 2007-02-25T22:14:00

2007-02-26T03:14:49Z

i suck. maybe tomorrow will be better.